09 3 / 2009
Friday the 13th
In exactly 4 days, it will be my one month SIGLO (“Since I Got Laid Off”) anniversary. It sort of seems unreal that it has already been a month, but I have been feeling restless and deterred more recently. The job market is slim and I’m becoming more dispirited as each day passes. I wake up everyday to do my daily job searches and some of the boards don’t display any new positions for 2 or more days at a time.
I had an encouraging lead with Microsoft, but my resume only passed through 2 recruiters. It seems it didn’t interest the hiring manager enough for her to call me. Another option I have waiting in the wind is from a former colleague who had passed along my resume to his director. This job potential is local here in Dallas. I’m supposed to hear back details tomorrow. Other than that, there have been no interviews.
I’m starting to feel nervous about the outcome. I tend to think of the worst case scenario but I know I have friends and family who won’t let me be out in the streets. I’m trying to not get attached to my material possessions just in case I may have to sell them. I believe the only real heartbreaker would be me having to move out of my loft in downtown Dallas. One of my life goals I envisioned as a young girl was to grow up to be a professional businesswoman with my own high-rise loft in the heart of a big city. I made it and I would hate to lose it. I know these superficial things are insignificant and I keep reminding myself that I’m spoiled and that there are many more people who have less and have more mouths to feed. My unemployment only affects me. For others, whole families hurt.
I’m fighting against the depression slowly creeping up behind me. I’m keeping myself busy with painting, reading and industry research. I don’t want to get sunk in the funk that many are surely feeling right now. These are discouraging and bleak times but I don’t want to be my usual pessimistic self around this. I’ve been happy since the first day I got laid off and I will continue to be so through loved ones, family and friends around me. I’m going to be strong and keep hope. Not gonna let this get me down.
